There’s no other way to say it.

I’m scared.

And the funny thing is, I’m not scared I may have MS. In fact, it’s quite liberating.


Because I’ll have no more excuses.

No, more “maybe tomorrows.”

No more “I’ll do that somedays.”

When my retina specialist first said these two little letters to me–MS–I didn’t know what to think.

But, now all I can think of is one thing:

How I felt inside that MRI tube.

And, I can’t get over it.

And, I hate it.

And, I’m scared.

And, I hate that even more.

Being scared to me is not an option. Wait. I take that back. Letting people know I’m scared is not an option.

You see, I’m really good at hiding things. Emotions in particular. But, y’all, I’m scared.

Really scared.

Of feeling how I did at my first MRI.

I’m having a panic attack just writing it.

What if I go to my open MRI when I’m all “hamburger inside the bun” and I still freak out?

Someone talk me down off this cliff, y’all.

When you are stressed out, overwhelmed or scared, what are some things you do to help?

One thing I know for sure though, even if I’m not walking in it right now is…

Fear is not from the Lord!

A scripture that always helps me is…

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

2 Tim 1:7 KJV

I repeat this one. A lot. And, right now I’m leaning on it like no other time. That is the best part to me about God’s Word.

It’s always here right when I need it.

So tonight as I finish up this post, I’ll be repeating 2 Timothy 1:7 and praising God for His miracles, His love and for you.

Thank you so much for being on this journey with me. I know I’m not alone. 💖 If you’ve dropped in and this is your first post, welcome! If you’d like to catch up, here are the links to my other posts in this series.

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Have a blessed day!

I found the scripture God gave me from the Inspiration Box at the registration desk. He is so good to me. He’s not finished with me yet!

13 responses to ““Ruling things out” — I have something I hate to admit.”

  1. Please take care, yes you aren’t alone God is with you my dear lovely woman. Loves n prayers. Amen🙏

    1. Thank you so much, Suma. You blessed me with this reminder. 💖

      1. My pleasure Ma’am 😇❤🙏

  2. Take Care Dear. ❤

    1. Thank you so much! God bless you 💖

  3. Get well soon, Dawn. Blessings.

    1. Thank you so much! And, for joining me on my journey 💖

    2. Yonca! I thought this was you! Email me if you’d like to chat 💖

      1. Yes, it was me. I will email you, too. It is a privilege to join your journey.💖💖

      2. Thank you, Yonca. 💖

  4. My dearest friend and next door neighbor was diagnosed with MS about 25 years ago. Wheel-chair bound for the last 12 years, he continues to live a rewarding and fulfilling life, with his daughter getting married next year, and he plans to “roll” her down the aisle! 😁
    I continue to pray for his complete healing and am left confused as to why Father continues to not do so, but his and my faith is not based on what God does for us. We are brothers looking forward to that kingdom where death will never affect any of us again.

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