There’s no other way to say it.
I’m scared.
And the funny thing is, I’m not scared I may have MS. In fact, it’s quite liberating.
Why?
Because I’ll have no more excuses.
No, more “maybe tomorrows.”
No more “I’ll do that somedays.”
When my retina specialist first said these two little letters to me–MS–I didn’t know what to think.
But, now all I can think of is one thing:
How I felt inside that MRI tube.
And, I can’t get over it.
And, I hate it.
And, I’m scared.
And, I hate that even more.
Being scared to me is not an option. Wait. I take that back. Letting people know I’m scared is not an option.
You see, I’m really good at hiding things. Emotions in particular. But, y’all, I’m scared.
Really scared.
Of feeling how I did at my first MRI.
I’m having a panic attack just writing it.
What if I go to my open MRI when I’m all “hamburger inside the bun” and I still freak out?
Someone talk me down off this cliff, y’all.
When you are stressed out, overwhelmed or scared, what are some things you do to help?
One thing I know for sure though, even if I’m not walking in it right now is…
Fear is not from the Lord!
A scripture that always helps me is…
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
2 Tim 1:7 KJV
I repeat this one. A lot. And, right now I’m leaning on it like no other time. That is the best part to me about God’s Word.
It’s always here right when I need it.
So tonight as I finish up this post, I’ll be repeating 2 Timothy 1:7 and praising God for His miracles, His love and for you.
Thank you so much for being on this journey with me. I know I’m not alone. 💖 If you’ve dropped in and this is your first post, welcome! If you’d like to catch up, here are the links to my other posts in this series.
Have a blessed day!
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