“Ruling things out” — Why am I doing this?

I don’t like to share things.

But, I felt it vitally important that I wrote this story down.

For me, because I wanted it documented. I wanted it as part of my history. I wanted to know that any time 20, 30, 40 years from now I could look back on my blog and read about what happened to me in these few months of 2021.

But I also wanted to write it for you.

Someone out there needs to read this. Someone out here is going through the same mess I’m going through. And, you’re scared

And I want you to know that you’re not alone. I’m not the only one going through this with you, I may just be the only one writing it down. I may just be the only one sharing my journey. I am here every step of the way…with you.

And, so is God. He is holding your precious right hand. He is lifting you up. He is walking beside you, behind you, in front of you; He’s carrying you every step of the way. On days when you feel it and especially on the days when you don’t.

God. Is. Here.

He is here for both of us.

The funny thing about God? He believes in you whether you believe in him or not.

He’s fighting for you, rooting for you, standing beside you every second of your life.

He’s here lining everything up. I know He is in charge. I see him commanding my doctor’s appointments because they just lineup so easily. I trust him every step of the way. I know that He’s with me. I know that He’s for me, and know that He’s guiding me to the right doctors. That He’s touching my body every day. That He’s the one encouraging me.

Words cannot express the gratitude I have to my God. I am so happy. I am so blessed. He is so trusting and trustworthy. My faith is growing in this experience because it has to. I have to have faith that God is with me whether I’m diagnosed with MS as or I’m healed completely. He is with me always.I know that because I read it in his Word. Everyday, I read his promises to me for obedience, for following his commandments, for just respecting him as the holy God He is. He promises to take care of me all the days of my life. He promises me abundance, prosperity; a future. (Jeremiah 29:11).

He is here.

And, He’s with you too. Trust Him. I have. And, He’s made everything so easy.

“I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul makes its boast in the Lord ; let the humble hear and be glad. Oh, magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together! I sought the Lord , and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them. Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!” Psalm 34:1‭-‬8 (ESV)

I am taking refuge in you, God.